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Part 2
Everyone's logical and they're dying. You'll find nourishment and result. And this is what you have to be open to. You're open to God to feed you, not to tell you where you left your car because the keys are in your pocket and you don't know where you're wandering around in the streets. It's not for that kind of thing. And when you ask a question or you want something inside, it has to be something which is adding to you spiritually. And that biggest something is nourishment. You need something to be unblocked in you so that there's a flow that can take place in you, that nourishment can be received in you. It's absolutely essential. You have to know what you want in this life. And this wanting has to be in a very practical way. And if you can't figure it out, you take your head and hit it on the floor about 20 or 30 times until you dislodge something. There are real reasons for things. It's not this stupid kind of crap of what do I do in my next life and who was my grandmother last time. That will never mean a thing because this may have been the person who pushed you off the Empire State building....and you found them! And this is so stupid with people. They're always looking for connections in the past life. And God help you if you ever make some of them! These are not all positive connections. Everyone wasn't your Guru last time. Believe me. And you don't look for that. You look for someone who is nourishing you and someone who is feeding you. And all of this crap of spiritualism on the earth is just nothing but that. It's all blockages to keep you from growing. There's only one thing that lets you grow.....that's somebody who will work for you and somebody who will nourish you. And all the other conversations that you have are ways of stopping and staying in your karma forever. Logic. Justification. Reality. I understand, I understand, I understand. Meanwhile, you're sinking. And you keep saying, "I understand." It's so stupid. And of than anything else it's personal dishonesty. You with your friends crapping each other night and day saying, "Boy, do you look great!" And then going, "Boy, it looks like he's dying." If you really want to help anybody, don't say nothing, Just say, "Look, you're spaced out of your mind. Go home and go to sleep." But to help somebody murder themselves is not God and it's not kindness. It's just a lack of courage. And you have to really, once and for all, most of you know each other and know other people, be simple and be straight-forward and be honest. You want to love....love, but don't help somebody else drown and tell them how great they look while they're going down for the 3rd time. This is one of the things that takes place in spiritual groups. You don't discuss your inner work with each other. You don't ask each other for help. It's like asking a horse doctor how to fix a brain tumor. It doesn't work that way. If you want to ask somebody, hold your question and go inside and let God ask each other. It's very, very bad. You hold it inside. The answer will come for you because you've all had an inner contact. It's being lazy and unconscious and that's one of the biggest reasons that people don't get answers. Because the first person they come to, they say, " I think you look pretty groovy. That's a great sweater you're wearing. I know with a sweater like that, you would be able to give me a spiritual answer.....or a great pair of sandals. With a $25 pair of sandals you can answer anything spiritually." It's ridiculous. It's not based on that at all. If a person isn't qualified as a teacher, you sit with it inside and you ask God inside 100 times, 200 times, 300 times. Make the question simpler. Cut it down. Refine it and go deep.....not on the surface of the heart and not on the surface of a chakra. Go deep inside. Baba's mantra is OM NAMAH SHIVAYA. He says you go deep. Meditate on your Self. Kneel to your Self. He doesn't mean a little deep. You can surrender inside and bring your mind inside your heart and go in about 50 million miles. It's not 4 inches or 2 inches or 1 inch. It's endless. The Atma, the endlessness of the cosmos is inside a human being. So people feel a nervous twitch on the outside of the heart. They feel a muscle spasm and they think they've had an enlightenment in the heart. It's not true. The heart can open. The heart is bigger than the physical person. Every chakra is bigger than the physical person. Because it has to extend out from you physically, spiritually into infinity. Nothing is limited by your physical self, except you. You're limited by your physical self. You're limited by your mind. Everything in you is one with God. If you surrender inside, t will become one with God. But you can't be enlightened as a one inch ribbon from the top of your head down to your sex organs. And if you open your heart like this and you open this other chance to ever find anything. It's magnificent. Spiritual work is magnificent! It's extraordinary. And it's not this little thing in here, like trying to walk through a half closed door. You have to really open to the magnificence of it. You breathe. You feel yourself swell out this way. You see a statue of a Buddha. He's not trying to get on to a lotus like that. The lotus is bigger than his ass. It's out here. You never saw a Buddha sitting on a lotus like that. And you do this in yourself. You are constricted inside because of your own mind, of what you think you should have or what you think exists. It's about 6 billion times more than you know. So that you have an experience and you open and the experience is, ....wow....it's a mind blower!.....Relax. You have billions of muscles in there that can absorb the energy. And there's nothing shocking about it. The shocking thing is, by being stupid about it, you squeeze it out of you like a sponge. It comes in and you go voom, voom, voom....squirt out for the next 24 hours. You surrender, you relax, you close your eyes, you go into meditation and you absorb what you've received. You be quiet about it. But if you get on the phone and call Shirley, Gussie, Jimmy and John and everything else, by the time you finish, the telephone company has 90 cents and you spit out your spiritual life. You sit with it, you absorb it, and you let it marinate your whole being. You don't give it to the telephone company. It's very essential. You hold on to it. You hold on to this force. You let it ring through you....like a bell. You let it go from your heart and infect every part of your being. If you have a thing in your brain, you let your brain infect your heart and your throat and every chakra in you. If I kicked you in the shins, you'd feel it in your head in a second. It's the same way when you have a spiritual experience, let that experience go through every part of your body. Ring with it! Let it fill you. Let it really spread through every atom of you. Sympathetic nervous system. There's also a thing called the sympathetic spiritual system. Where you can make that in yourself. You have a experience one place....you open everything else in you and let that be infected by this experience. So that you have a tingling in your head, you feel a warmth in your head.....you should feel it right down to your toes, because you let everything enjoy it. You really share the rest of your being with that experience with God. It wasn't meant for the tip of your nose or the end of your tonsils. That experience is in you, it should go right through you like a hot coal. But you have to be open and conscious for something like that to happen. And if in yourself you're there clutching in your head saying," There it is on the tip of my brain....on the tip of my brain....on the tip of my brain.....", this ember goes out and it becomes coal dust. But if you sit there and you are so grateful, you open your heart in gratitude to receive this experience..opening in gratitude. Your heart opens and it fans this little ember. Then you open down here and it expands it again. And you feel it through your tits, whether you're a man or a woman. You just feel this thing spread through your whole being. You're giving everything to God but when it touches my nipples....that's the end. I won't have it!....And you have to realize that. Every part of you is infected, not the parts that you want to give, or that you think you want to give. And it's very hard for women that way, because when the force comes in it really sometimes will go through the breasts and sometimes it happens with a man. So what? That's part of God spreading in you. Nothing is sacred.....because it doesn't belong to you anyway. And you get clutched up....you have lost this flame that should go through and really infect every part of you. And I was with Baba in India once and suddenly this force came out and I felt like Diagram. Like here....this..What's the difference?" And it really filled me. And it stayed like that for 2 days. Nobody else could see it. It really wasn't too bad. But you have to understand that. It will come in you in strange ways. It will come in you in remarkable ways. And if it's your test to suddenly walk around with a different set of organs.....so what? And this is how it works. It shows up in mythology. It shows up in every kind of spirituality....but God help it if it shows up on you! That you won't accept. So you really let God come to you as God wants to come to you. It isn't you. It isn't you. It's God entering you. And there are more people sitting in loony bins because they will not accept that manifestation. It's stupid....because either you accept that manifestation or the next one is not going to come and it doesn't matter.....period. It has to be very simple. You have to let a force enter you and spread in you...and how it comes and where it goes is nothing you can hold on to it and spread that force through every part of you. And the greatest thing is to be grateful. And with Baba I go inside and I say, "Guru Om, Guru Om, Guru Om." So Baba enters me and expands in me. And I try to feel inside. I try to feel every organ in my body sympathetic to the experience, loving the experience, accepting the experience, expanding the experience. And this is how you work. So now we'll have a kundalini class. And you do exactly the same thing. What will come through me is Baba, his teacher, an ice cream soda I had yesterday, and everything else. And it really is also, everybody who ever taught. I had Tibetan teachers when I was 7. I got smacked on the fanny when I was 3. It's all there and it will come into you. What comes into you is no different than eating food. Your body will accept what it needs and what it doesn't need, it will go out. So you never have to be concerned about anyone giving you anything. It's an organic thing. What you're getting It's a present. You bring your mind down to this chakra below the belly button, the mulhadhara, or into the heart and you say GURU OM in the heart and down here. You try to feel the opening of these lotuses or these chakras. And you keep the mind in one chakra, either the heart chakra saying GURU OM, or the one below the belly button and you let them open to receive a great deal of force. It isn't this thing.......it's this thing (taking a big breath) . And then you try to breathe and as your mind opens the chakra, the air will go between the different petals or muscles, actually. And the mind will then nourish these muscles and expand the opening. If you feel it open... fine. If you don't, you still do it. But you breathe as it opens. If you breathe as it's closing, it will do this to you...it will shake you. And you have to understand that. Whenever you have a spiritual experience, there are things in you which are very alive and like the heart, is a great lotus. It opens wonderfully. It's beginning to close, you save your breath until it closes and starts to open again. Otherwise you'll start shaking. Any time you feel any pain or constriction, that means you're tight in the area. That means bring your mind there and surrender there. Because what the pain is saying is, "I have energy locked up by my mind." And the mind is holding the energy closed. Any time you have any kind of experience like that spiritually, you find your mind, for some reason, has turned against you, and has closed up. You then bring your mind to the point where the tension is, and you surrender with your mind, and this thing will open and flow again. So you keep open, you breathe, you try to say GURU OM in the heart and if you hear this OM sound which is always in the atmosphere, it's like a high tension wire, you try to listen for it, you bring it through...(keep your head up.) And everyone if you possibly can, be sure you're in a position so you can see me before the class starts, which means that you're open to the energy coming in. Because your eyes will be closed during this. But it means at least the force will flow...(move over a little this way please.) And it's true if you're at a lecture or anywhere else, what you're doing besides hearing words, which is nothing, if you respect a person at all, you're receiving through them a force. The words are nothing. Let the flow go in. Open inside and tune in with them. I sat with many people who were great saints. They weren't my particular saint. They really didn't talk to me. My body didn't respond to them. My chemistry didn't respond to them. But I sat with them for 2, 3, 4 days. I tuned into them and suddenly I understood something about their energy. It wasn't particularly the thing that would drive me out of my mind. I wouldn't fall over them. But still, you respect someone that way because they represent a higher force. You open to them and you keep opening until you begin to feel something. That you don't feel is not thier lack. It's your lack. They may have within them the vital link to your chemistry and you sit with them until you begin to feel this oneness with them. And then you surrender and then you're tuned in and you can receive what they have. And anyone you go to see.....it's easy to put down somebody. But it's really work, conscious work to surrender, to receive from them. It doesn't have to be 100%. It may have to be the 1% that can save your life at another time. And you must realize that. It doesn't matter who is your Guru. It doesn't matter what your Guru gave you. We all need reinforcement. We all need additional energy. And we're not taking lists of names so we're not concerned about that. It's without that kind of attachment. It's attachment to life and it's attachment to God. So during the class, you open, you breathe in, you try to open and feel this chakra, this flower open in you. You feel it down here. And if you feel any energy going into your sex organs, you just wiggle on your this. It releases the tension around the base of the spine so that when the force is in the sex organs, it's able to come up your spinal column. You feel it in your sex organs, you bring a little bit of attention to the tip of your spine and by moving this way, it will just go right up. If you breathe, swallow, one breath of air always into the throat, which makes the throat a fulcrum. It's a chakra. When you breathe and swallow, the breath goes deep inside, instead of just touching the outside of the chakra it penetrates the chakra. The same way when you breathe into the heart. You go (demonstrates) ...you really swallow air in the heart area and the energy goes in. It penetrates in the chakra instead of just washing over it. So throughout your class, if you feel the need in your heart or the throat or any other chakra, take in some breath, let it expand, and then when you feel it go into your sex organs you rock on your backside and the force will go up and it will turn on your head automaticly make a fulcrum out of this chakra. Then it will go right up to the top of your head. And you keep repeating inside you, whoever your Guru is, "Guru Om, Guru Om, Guru Om" so that he will feed you and every Guru that ever lived will feed you....because it's all one .....this way. If anyone has a question before we start, I'll be glad to answer. Question: Do we put the attention in the heart or in one of the other chakras? Rudi: You feel which works best for you. Question: What about tension in your back? Rudi: If you have it in your back....if it's across the shoulder blades, then you can turn your head. If it's in the middle you can't do anything because it means that your spine is trying to ....you could.....I do this sometimes, I just will bend a little back...this way....which will release it into the spinal column. But see, all of these are things that you should test yourself with before you come to a class. You really sit down, you (breathing deeply try to do this.....you flex your shoulder blades....you try to test out your instrument before the class begins. Now please close your eyes and we'll begin the class. And you're receiving....you're receiving an energy of Baba's and his teachers. And you have to have a deep sense of being open (and keep your eyes closed) and in your heart, be grateful, because somebody is giving you something. You have to learn to be very grateful in your heart and stay very open. (class begins) With Kundalini Yoga, it works in a very direct way. And it's an active force which will really work inside you. And once it's been given it really keeps on working. And they call it Kundalini Yoga - serpent power - because it's very much the effect of being bitten by a cobra. It really enters your system. It's nothing to fool about and it's nothing to kid about. It really is a unifying force. It really goes from chakra to chakra and it completely, the way a string to different chakras and unifies them by giving this kind of thread that runs from one chakra to another. Now, for any of you who have any doubts about wanting to have an experience or wanting to have a deeper experience, you really shouldn't stay because it really is a question of respect for other people. If you want to try, certainly, you're very welcome. But you can't sit in any way and be foolish because you affect the person next to you and the person behind you and the person around you. And this is true of any kind of meditation or any kind of spiritual work. The effectiveness is cut tremendously by other people's attitudes and other people's working. This has come up over and over again. And you have to try now to sit up very straight and come within yourself. Bring your attention within yourself and ask very deeply and try your heart. Because you can't, in any kind of spiritual work, say that you want to have an experience in your head, while within your heart there's this conflict, this thing which really doesn't want to be enlightened, that really doesn't want to grow. And this is an essential thing in any kind of spiritual work. You have to really, just take a deep breath through your mouth and feel in your heart. And really feel in your heart, are you open? Because how can you have an experience, if in your heart you are rejecting the potential of having the experience. Your mind says, "I want." and your heart says, "No" You really have to be, throughout you, asking and open. And then bring your mind inside, usually right below the belly-button, the chakra, and you ask in there very deeply and try to feel it open and say, "I wish to grow spiritually." And try to sense inside yourself. You can close your eyes. In fact, you should keep your eyes closed for the rest of it so you might as well do it now. Close your eyes have....if you ever find that you are losing your sense of being open, then you take a breath into the heart again and keep your heart open and then come down again right below the belly-button, to the mulhadhara. Bring your attention in there. And you say, " I wish to surrender." ...........Try and do your breathing regularly and consciously so that the breath coming into you becomes God. And within yourself, start the chant of GURU OM. The Guru is God. And you try to feel deeply within yourself. And try to feel another force enter you, which is the force of the Guru. This is really the force of Baba. And if you have any sensation of this coming down and touching you at the base of the spine, you just wiggle a little bit and let the force come up your back and keep the chant inside of GURU OM. (silence)
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